By Betzy Brize
KERALA — Every morning at 8, a man named Kunjappi walks slowly to a small hotel near the center of Kadampandu village. He orders a cup of tea and something light to eat. Most days, he does not have enough money in his pocket. But the people at the shop always serve him. Villagers have quietly arranged with the local hotel and thattukada to make sure he never goes hungry.
Kunjappi is 68 now. He lives alone. Life has taken many things away from him. But his quiet grace, and the memory of the artist he once was, still remain.
“He was the finest artist in our village,” says Sunnykutty, a 70 year old retired pastor and Kunjappi’s old neighbor. “We grew up in the same area. He was four years younger than me. We didn’t study in the same school, but we played together all the time. If my school ever needed drawings or posters, someone would always go to Kunjappi. He never said no.”
As a child and teenager, Kunjappi was quiet by nature. He preferred silence. But he expressed himself through his drawings. When he felt something or wanted to say something, he would write it down or sketch it out.
At 19, he left the village and moved to Mumbai in search of work. No one knows exactly what happened there, but villagers say he was betrayed by his colleagues. When he returned to Kadampandu, something in him had changed.
He had trouble speaking for long. His behavior had shifted. People said he was not well. Since then, he has lived on the edge of things. He does not cook. He does not own much. But he is still here. And many villagers, especially older ones, still hold deep respect for who he was and who he still is, in his own way.
When I heard about him from neighbors, I felt I had to meet him. I waited for him near the road one evening around 5. That is usually when he goes out for his evening tea.
After some time, I saw him. He was thin, well dressed, and had neatly combed hair. I introduced myself. He was calm and kind. He listened carefully. He was eager to talk. After a while, I asked if he would be willing to draw something again.
Without hesitation, he said yes. His eyes lit up.
“I have not drawn in years,” he said.
His hands were shaking, but his focus was sharp. In that moment, it was as if time had turned back. I invited him to sit inside the house, but he gently refused.
“I do not want to sit. I am okay to stand here,” he said.
He asked what kind of picture I wanted. I told him, “Anything.”
He drew a simple house. A large, beautiful canoe paddle. A coconut tree.
For the next picture, he asked if I had something to show. I gave him my phone with a photo. His eyesight was not very good, but he still began to sketch it. I watched him. Quiet, focused, completely present.
While he drew, I asked him a few questions.
Do you live alone?
“Yes.”
Do you live nearby?
“I live just in that corner,” he said, pointing. “But I belong everywhere in this world.”
Are you not afraid to live alone?
“I am afraid to live with people,” he said. “Men, women, everyone. They betray us. I do not want to be part of betrayal.”
His words stayed with me. Maybe those who call him crazy are not seeing clearly. Maybe he is not broken. Just different. Maybe even unique.
“Do you believe in anything?” I asked.
He smiled. “No. I do not believe in anything. But I respect what people believe. Everything in this world revolves around one thing. And we do not know what it is.”
He lifted his head every time I asked him a question, as if he wanted to be fully present for every answer. His responses were thoughtful. Measured.
Do you still read?
“I did, when I was younger. Mostly anything I saw.”
Did you ever dream of being an artist?
“Yes,” he said. “But earlier, artists were nothing to society. People did not encourage artists. So I never dreamed big.”
That sentence hit me. How many people have we lost to that silence. the ones who could have shaped something beautiful if only someone had told them it mattered?
After some time, I asked if he was tired.
“Yes,” he said softly.
I told him it was okay to stop. But he insisted on finishing the drawing.
His hands trembled. But his mind did not wander. He finished what he started.
I stood there, watching him. A man who had lost so much, yet still held onto something precious. The ability to create. The will to complete what he began.
There are many stories like Kunjappi’s in India. Men and women whose lives were altered by trauma or left unsupported by society. People who live quietly on the margins. Often forgotten.
But not here. In Kadampandu, Kunjappi is still remembered. Still respected. Still offered food and tea. Small things. But they matter.
There are no formal mental health services here. No institutions. No outreach. But there is kindness. A few warm meals. A conversation on the roadside. A space to be.
Kunjappi may never return to the artist he once was. But he is not invisible. And in this village, he is not alone.
Maybe that is what dignity looks like, not being celebrated, not being healed, but being seen.